I woke up the next morning with a heavy heart. It still felt like I was in a dream. How could I have been duped? After all my sharpness and even making nasty comments on social media whenever I saw a post detailing the way a lady had been duped. I always told them it was their greed and want for things they did not work for. But here I am, duped for my benevolence. I really did not feel like going to church that day. I was in no hunter’s mood. Was it not hunting that got me where I was? How careful could I have been? Where did I really go wrong? Continue reading Memoirs Of A Searching Lagos Lady 10
I look back and I wonder
Even in the midst of my ponder
Where you have been all my life
Or if you came just to spy
I remember the days I felt all alone
Wishing there was one to call my own
My pillow bore the brunt of my tears
Who else could bother about my cares?
I had to teach myself to wait
Not minding how long it would take
A time would come when I would smile
And thank my stars it took a while. Continue reading Love As I See It
Wind extinguishes candle but energizes fire.
Smith was retrenched from his job and after he collected his letter, he brought out his diary and looked at his budget for the month. School had just resumed and he had his three children’s school fees to pay. His father-in-law was ill and staying in the hospital in Lagos that meant he was responsible for the bills and taking care of him. His wife had a small provision store in front of their compound that was making just enough profit to buy some foodstuff and pay the shop bills. He was the first son in his family and that meant the responsibilities of the home were on his shoulders. While he was thinking of all these, he looked out the window of his high rise office building and before he could give it a second thought, he made for the window. Continue reading What The Wind Brings Forth
Yemi called again around 9pm and by then, I was visibly worried. Daniel’s number had not gone through all day and I did not know how to call Yemi and tell him that. at this point, I was having mixed feelings of both worry and disappointment. Worry because I was really worried about what could have possibly gone wrong and disappointed because if something has happened to Daniel, that means that I have lost a very qualified prospect. Then, the question popped in my head, “What about Daniel do I know that has made me conclude he was a prospect?” I did a random check of my expected qualities which he had checked about 80% of and wondered if that was all I needed to conclude on a guy? I felt a little ashamed of myself. Continue reading Memoirs of A Searching Lagos Lady 9
Isaiah 49: 24,25
Shall the prey be taken from the mighty, or the lawful captive delivered?
But thus saith the LORD, Even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, and the prey of the terrible shall be delivered: for I will contend with him that contendeth with thee, and I will save thy children.
Isaiah 49 vs 12 to 26 was my confession for this week and while I was reading it, these two verses jumped at me and I decided to meditate on them. Here is the lesson I got from it. Continue reading The Lawful Captive
I left my office and called an Uber cab to take me to the mechanic’s workshop where I will pick up the car. I tried calling Daniel several times while on my way but did not reach him. I sent several texts asking him to get back to me as soon as he saw the texts. Nothing still.
I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition.
I went through a very rough phase in my love life. I used to boast to anyone who cared to listen of how easily I could be unattached or detached to a guy. I used to say that once a guy gave me any form of emotional hassles, I would just take a walk without batting an eyelid and I did in some occasions until my emotion got me hooked in. I got to love someone who I became very emotionally attached to, though I did not admit it at the time, but got to know when our relationship hit the high waters and it became quite turbulent. I remember telling myself after my birthday then that it was the end of the relationship because I felt I was treated terribly. How can I have my birthday and my boyfriend could not even send a cake and then made up an excuse at the end of the day for that. I cried myself to sleep but still did not end the relationship. In fact, we dragged ourselves till the next year, in January, when we decided it was time to help ourselves and just go our separate ways. Continue reading WHERE WENT MY HAPPINESS?
Now, we all knew Ogechi from our school days as someone who was a serious pessimist. If you had any idea and needed someone who will bring out all the down sides to that idea your run to person should be Ogechi. Immediately, I saw her response, I remembered and I knew I made a mistake. She continued,
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The occupant of the vehicle walked up to my window and was apologizing. I wound down, opened my car door and walked to the back to see the damage without even acknowledging him. My booth was badly dented but thankfully, none of the lights were affected. I have never been someone who raises my voice when I am pissed or seriously angry. I seethe. I just got into my car and moved it out of the road for other motorists to pass. He drove behind me and was still apologizing seriously. When I looked at his own car, my anger subsided a little. His two lights were broken and his bonnet was bashed in. This felt like my guardian angels were on active duty because he had more damage than I did.
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